Tuesday, March 23, 2010'♥
Break, Broke, Broken...Before I'm drowning in Sms and calls.. I guessed it's time for me to clear the air.. I'm so tired of repeating haha.. maybe I should hold a press conference? Can see that there have been more Clicks from FB to my blog during the past two days...
Many are asking "WHY"... and some are saying.. "See.. I told you before"... some even more power.. never contact u for fucking dunno how many million yrs and then suddenly popped out and ask "WHAT Happened?"
Be it good or bad.. I thank you guys for the concerns..and I really appreciate all your efforts in trying to find out am I ok anot?
I am
OK.. seriously.. if this happened 4 yrs ago, perhaps you will see me crying myself to slp everyday, felt a sense of loss blah blah blah..
However things were different this time round, perhaps previously I failed to cherish the r/s that's why I felt so sad.. but once bitten twice shy.. same scenario, same method (SMS), same well wishes at the end (I wish that you will find better happiness next time)...
except that the smses are longer.. some keywords are ( feelings faded, no longer wish to resolve, irritates me to see u go clubbing, it's my life, better off alone.....etc)
What I can conclude is that our thinking and characters are different, and at some point of time.. communication breakdown..
A r/s is btw two person, if it's really that bad and can't work out, there's no point holding on. Wasting each other's time and youth...
So yah, I'm not as sad as before, it's more of disappointment anyway I know at least this time I've tried and when a person's feeling changes, they would come up with all sorts of excuses just to end it.. So there's no point for me being sad cause he's not worth it :)
Pls do not judge anyone of us.. cause only him and me know the real truth.. so there's no point in pointing fingers who's right and who's wrong and dun assume anything...cause ppl might change over time and we can't blame them..
However one advice for couples who are on the verge of breaking up.. pls do not use SMS as the medium to break up (especially on a Mon Morning where work is so busy and u have to juggle btw sms and work) cause you can't expressed urself much in that 160 Characters... Dun bother to explain anything.. it might make it worse.. haha
So all in all I'm fine, doing well, as what my cousin conveyed.. 我吃得饱，睡得好。。。
Thanks Selyn mama for analyzing the stiuation with me.. u just makes me feel better and straight away no TEARS!! u rocks!!
Thanks my ex-boss for sms-ing me upon hearing the news..
Thanks to fucker frens (u know who u are), my cousins, clubbing khakis, working colleagues for trying to make me laugh, everyone and anyone who smsed, msned, and fb me, or even wanted to mit me on the day itself to cheer me up..
I'm really really very touched.. Thank God when I'm attached that time I never neglected u all.. Cause Frens are so much better than Bfs....
A quote from Seasonal fren Joyce: When life gets tough, SUCK it in!! ahhaah
下一个会更好。。。。。Let's wait and see..
我不难过又站在你家的门口
我们重复沉默
这样子单方面的守候
还能多久
终于你开口向我诉说她有多温柔
虽然你还握着我的手
但我已不在你心中
我真的懂
你不是喜新厌旧
是我没有
陪在你身边
当你寂寞时候
别再看着我
说着你爱过
别太伤痛
我不难过
这不算什么
只是为什么眼泪会流
我也不懂
就让我走
让我开始享受自由
回忆很多
你的影子也会充满我生活
我并不懦弱
你比谁都懂
虽然寂寞
这会是我
最后的宽容
抱紧我
再抱紧我
这一份感动
请你让我留在胸口
别再说是你的错
爱到了尽头
是非对错
就让它随风
忘了所有
过得比你快活
不要再说
或许这是最好的结果
现在分手
总好过你不爱我一拖再拖
松开你的手
离开你左右
我向前走
这会是我
真正的解脱
Short Note:
I really need your blessings! haha
Friday, March 12, 2010'♥
Understanding..There's a lot of incidents in life where ppl asked us to be understanding. I tried most of the time and there's some actions which I would never really understand.
For Example No 1:
- When you worked on weekends and we can't meet up.
My point of view: True enough, working on weekends are fine to me and I am understanding enough to not meet up every week, not even once a week.
- When you are busy on a project and we can't meet up.
My point of view: It's ok, I can have plans with my own girlfriends and be understanding enough not to disturb u.. No meet is ok...
- When we make plans for overseas trips and had to postpone it.
My point of view: Though this is not the first time, it's ok I'll be understanding and tried to ask my frens to go with me.
For Example No 2:
- When we planned abt the Bkk trip and you said you can't go somewhere near Aug 10 due to you having some voluntary work.
My point of view: It's ok then we go to those dates which are earlier so that it won't clashed with your voluntary work that week.
- When you said you might have PMS during the first week of Aug and might not feel comfortable going during that period.
My point of view: It's ok then we just go to the dates which can accommodate to you.
Yes, I did try to be understand to these two people. But what did I get in the end??
People took me for granted thinking that I will be UNDERSTANDING and UNDERSTAND their stiuations?
Hey, for goodness sake's I am human orite.. I can't be forever understanding and put myself in people's shoes...can't I be selfish for once? So just because, I always angry and get over it easily, that means you all can ASSUME everything it's ok and just live with it...
I tried to understand why we never meet up so often? I did try orite? but the reasons u gave me are beyond my understanding... No matter how tired, poor the person is, what I asked for is just a simple dinner affair on weekdays? Is it really that difficult to initiate and make an effort to meet up instead of me always being the one?
AND
I tried to understand your BUSY schedule due to the voluntary thingy, I aksed you UMPTEEN times whether you can make it anot, whether you want to go anot until you said I'm long-winded.. WE WERE THERE to BOOK the tickets together you didn't even mentioned anything..
I tried so hard to find dates that we could go, changing the dates over and over again so that we would not missed the promotions of the airline.. and yet?
AFTER we HAVE BOOKED everything you told me a day after, you might not have enough days for your leave and the voluntary thingy might have briefing..
Why don't you tell me earlier? Why don't you plan earlier on the day WHEN I FIRST ASKED YOU?? at the KIM Gary Restaurant? Oh so total u have TWO DAYS instead of ONE DAY to think...
Oh ya now u said coz I gave u one day dateline onli.. PLS Budget Airline DON"T WAIT, you try asking them to wait for you to think and at the same time block seats for you? pls if you want to wait then take SQ.. they will let u wait and plan and think FOREVER!!
If you want to take budget the main thing is be FAST.. plan and go!! so many ppl are snatching the seats due to promo.. DUN EVER TRAVEL ON BUDGET IF YOU DUN SENSED THE URGENCY!!
Yes yes yes, Understanding is not easy... If you can really be so understanding , then congrats to you!! you're a Saint!!
And if you can't, Congrats we are HUMAN.. we can't be always thinking from other ppl's shoes, we have our own desire, our own dreams our own interest, why bear with it and pretend nothing has happened and be understanding when the truth is YOU ARE NOT HAPPY AT ALL!!
and I'm sorry
From now on I want to be happy.. so no understanding would be ENTERTAINED!!
Short Note: First time I'm ever so PISSED