有一种爱叫做放手

如果两个人的天堂

象是温馨的墙

囚禁你的梦想

幸福是否象是一扇铁窗

候鸟失去了南方

如果你对天空向往

渴望一双翅膀

放手让你飞翔

你的羽翼不该伴随玫瑰

听从凋谢的时光

浪漫如果变成了牵绊

我愿为你选择回到孤单

缠绵如果变成了锁链

抛开诺言

有一种爱叫做放手

为爱放弃天长地久

我们相守若让你付出所有

让真爱带我走

为爱结束天长地久

我的离去若让你拥有所有

让真爱带我走说分手

为了你失去你

狠心扮演伤害你

为了你离开你

永远不分的离去

A Song that makes me teared...

I'm currently feeling like shit.. feeling PMS-sy.

Short Note: I hate May...

Je suis fille unique...

I was born as an only child in my family...due to the late marriage of my parents and financial constraints..

I studied alone, I watched tv alone and sometimes I played alone...

Since young, I had this habit of talking to my teddy bears... I treated them as my only friend, tell them what I encountered in school, who did I quarreled with and even my crush..you might have thought that I am crazy but I really treated them like my family members.. They are the ones whom I will get to see them everyday when I get home...

I remembered once during my birthday.. I wished for siblings.. .Of course being an only child isn't that bad.. at least the love from my parents were not being shared.

BUT

I always wanted to have an older sister or brother.. someone whom I can talked to, someone whom I can share my food with and someone who will dote on me.

Especially when I get older.. there are many problems in my life which I can't possibly tell my parents about it.. At that time, I really hope to have a sister or brother, someone whom can guide me along, someone who can listen to my problems and someone whom they can share their experience with...

I know.. not all siblings can get along well, someone might even hate each other..

But at least there's someone to share ur family burden with u? The responsibilities are much lesser , the burden are lighter...

At this point of time, I really hoped there's someone here to share the burden with me, especially when my parents are getting old..I felt so alone sometimes.....I felt so tired sometimes of bearing the burden..I felt so stretch out sometimes when I've reached my limit..I wished to contribute more.. but I really can't...

Am I really that useless?

You would never felt this way unless you're an only child..or maybe an only child from not a very well-do family...

People out there...cherish your siblings, it's not by coincidence that you all are siblings, it's by fate that you all are family members.. Not many people are that fated in this world..

Trust me if I'm given a chance.. I wouldn't want to be an only child again.. and if I have this chance in the future.. I wouldn't want to restrict myself to have one child only...really..

Short Note: An only child's agony...

Into Year 3...

School has started for a week plus..

Oh well.. I'm so reluctant to go back to school...I missed my last holiday.. I had so much fun and that is the last LONG holiday I had before I graduate... I have no HOLIDAYS in AUG due to attachment...THAT IS SO DAMN SAD seriously...

Anyway I finally started Year 3 and up till now it mean more projects, projects and still projects...

In Year 3, the tutor will spell out everything in the first lesson, stressed u this deadline that deadline, straight away throw the problem at you and asked you to discuss -__-...Unlike in Year 1.. They played ice-breaking games with us...hmmmmphhh wad a big CONTRAST haha

Currently had three projects on hand...One of them involved planning an event for a company which is going to happen on NATIONAL DAY....wohoooo when the date gets nearer... I will tell you guys more about it... Must go down and support alright...lolz..

Today is Ben & Jerry's free cone day.. it's my only motivation during lesson time...After class we faster chiong down to one of the outlets...and we found out that


THE QUEUE WERE DAMN BLOODY LONG LAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

It's really so long...that you wouldn't want to queue for it.. especially in this hot killer weather...

I ish DISAPPOINTED!!!! -_______-

NOW... who wants to treat me B&J ice-cream? You would get a free entry on Mrstea... (as if I'm those famous blogger, haha but who cares?) I will write up an entry about you...minimum 200 words... haha...

ONE more day to Labour Day...wohoooo.. I'm getting a free treat from BC... THAI FOOD~~ Yummy...

TMD, I'm just damn cheapo nowadays...

To sum up the number of treats I got from last holiday would really scared you guys off...haha but I'm still gonna do it anyway... As a token of appreciation...




MY CHEAPO LIST of treats and gifts from MAR - APR 2008...

* Lao D - Free paid trip to Batam everything include, and the lousy 7zai

* Ah D - French Restaurant, Chang Cheng Porridge, Jack's place

* Joewyn - KBOX session

* Selyn - The zi char at 138, Soup Restaurant (tmr opps)

* Ripplevox- Free movies or events always - The spiderwick Chronicles, Top Shop 20 bucks Gift Card

* Nuffnang- Free paid trip to KL

* X-tin - Ding Tai Feng, K-lunch

* Elsie - Cab Fare, Haagen Daz Chocolate fondue

* Cindy- LV wallet from BKK, Glitter Mascara

* Joseph- Tian Ji porridge



Power rite.. I even managed to go for short overseas trips without my own expenses... wohooooo

See now you know how reluctant I am to start school le ba...

I think I can win the Most CHEAPO AWARD this year...

on par with





















Auntie AUTOMATIC (zi dong sao) lah~~~ hahaha...

Don't asked me why Ppl want to treat me... No i didn't pester them to do so... I just roll on the floor give them an innocent and poor look..haha..

Free treats, freebies or gifts are still welcome...for once there's no deadline to these...haha

Pls feel free to contact me for more info....lolz..


Short Note: Cheapo is a trend now....

Fly Fly Fly...

Wanna wish both my dearie sisters Xiao Bu Ling and Xiao Fu... A happy birthday!!!.. Hopefully they will stay happy always.. I think this is the most important factor of all...

It's my fourth time to dragonfly and my second time into the member's arena. Ah D celebrated his birthday there last year too...

Guess who went there with me? You would never had guessed that...



It's Ms Joyce...



It's her first time clubbing and I felt a strong responsibility on my shoulder haha.. I'm like her mamasan have to take care of her.. Scanned through the drinks ppl gave her...

We were the first few to reach cause I'm with the two birthday girls ma.. So we waited for ppl to come and I didn't know that actually Dragonfly played RETRO songs in the earlier part of the day before the live band.. OH MAN so MAMBO lah... and yes Joyce loved RETRO too haha..

Saw many familiar faces there, which includes Ah Yap's sis Ms Stephy, one secondary sch mate, Ah D's younger brother and one of my ex-bf's sister there.. A pity some were seated too far and I had no chance to say Hi to them.. haha hopefully they won't think I'm tao...

It's Photos Time.. Hoooorayy~~~




One of the birthday girl.. Ms Elsie...She wore like a princess yest.. and yes the theme for the night is BIMBO.. I'm one of them that day if you understand what I meant opps...



Before we get high....



Moet and Chandon.. anyone??



Ms Christina...a new fren whom I met there.. She's super enthu and friendly... haha..




The nice bouquet of pink roses Christina bought for Ms X-tin



And then .....It's SHOW TIME....





Yes, I'm so near the stage...



Charlie...



William Scorpion...



Can u dance like this?



Celest...

Overall we were like watching the concert throughout... The live band performance was good..



Cutting cake Ceremony at 12am.. Ice-cream cake from Swensens with compliments from Kelvin.. Yummy...Oh ya where is Ms X-tin? She was so busy taking photos entertaining her guests.. You can see more photos of us when she uploaded it on her blog...



Birthday Kiss for you darling...




Meet our new Hongkong fren.. Alvin (hopefully I get your name correct) He flew down to Sing for two days only..Business Trip...




This is Johnny (let's hope I spelt it correctly) He actually reads X-tin's blog and recognizes me...haha..



This is only 1/4 of the booze... With the unlimited amount of booze around.. how not to get high?


This is what happen when we get high.....



FUNNY POSES all night long...












Shoulder for rent? haha..


Actions to look out for when I'm drunk or high...(Proven over the years when ppl told me about it)

1. I will go around and pour drinks to ppl, and cheers to them.. (even though I might not know the person)

2. I will keep going to the toilet to release

3. I will smsed rubbish to whoever the suay one who smsed me..

4. I will keep taking pictures haha (drunk or not drunk this is a proven MUST DO opps)

5. I will keep smiling or laughing...(so friendly rite..haha)

6. I will have the craving of eating Teo Chew Porridge after clubbing...


Poor Luis He msged me that night.. and in the end I checked my sentbox the next morning.. I exchanged a total of 10 smses with him...and it's all nonsense hahaha....

I smsed Ah D and asked him to bring me eat porridge for breakfast when he's already sleeping soundly

I smsed Lao D one msg too..and it's enough.. he called me the next day and said I'm a mad woman...oppsie...

Haha so now u know my stupid pattern liao... But dun worry lah I got limit de.. When I know I really can't make it le.. I will fake my way through when ppl tried to force me to drink... That is.. POUR MIXER in the cup (eg: Ribena or Greentea) and FAKE my way through... shhhhhhh Dun tell ppl ok..haha

At least.. I won't vomit, shout, cry, fight and made a nuisance of myself... hehehe...

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On Saturday morning , Ah D saw the sms I sent him...

But as I was still sleeping soundly, He brought me to dinner afterwards, instead of breakfast....(He is guilty of not responding to my sms muahahah)

As I've said in my previous post... I burped Chivas.. with the hangover.. My cravings for porridge increased...

So we went to the famous Chang Cheng porridge.. I loved the yu sheng so much..



I loved their Pork Porridge.. yummy...

Thanks for the dinner Mr AH D...yesh I cheated yet another free dinner again....wooohooo...

Short Note: Why aren't you the one...

中国风

I remembered 933 Fm got this time slot during weekends to intro songs from China.. If I'm not wrong it's 1030 on Sat and Sun morning..

Today We shall have a 中国风 in Mrstea.

I was being mind fucked influenced by Lao D to listen to all these cheena songs.. But yesh trust him me the songs are pretty nice...

1. 没有你的日子我真的好孤单



This is his current favorite.. He said he can use this song and go and cheat girls.. Let see how much girls he can cheat...


2. 不要用我的愛來傷害我



This song is damn sad... especially for those who just broke up...

3. 你是我的男人



I wished I wouldn't have to sing this song to a guy....haha


Yeah current the top playlist of Mr D's player..

After listening to the songs.. I realized Cheena songs' had a few things in common...

* The lyrics are always so damn good..able to relate to it...
* The songs are always so damn sad...able to make u cry for instance..
* The singer are always so damn powerful... you can feel their emotions when they're singing the song...full of 感情....

That's why now is really 中国风, there's a lot of potential singers in China and I think their singing career are going to a greater heights...

Do you all like the songs? One thing for sure.. I know another saddist Ah D will love it....

Haha...

Will update more about Ms X-tin and Ms Elsie's Bd celebration in the next post.. cause right now I still burped Chivas...I need to rest haha..oppss..


Short Note:Dumb Dumb = Dump Dump???

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Reminder....

Note to myself:

Be independent
Be independent
Be independent

Plan my weekends with lots of programs
Plan my weekends with lots of programs
Plan my weekends with lots of programs

Give myself One week
Give myself One week
Give myself One week

Don't be soft-hearted
Don't be soft-hearted
Don't be soft-hearted



Short Note: Tmr will be a better day...

Girls are you Independent?

I forgot where I heard this from:

"There's three types of girls that a guy fancy"

1. Girls which are like their mum - WHY? Cause to them they hope that their gf will be able to show them Tender Loving Care like their Mum.

2. Girls who are Independent - WHY? I guessed this is almost every guy's dream to have a gf who is independent? Guys likes their gf to be able to take care of themselves and not bother or stick to them every single minute.

3. Girls who are able to give them freedom - WHY? I think this is mutual? Maybe for guy's case they prefer to have their own space more.. They dun like to report their every single moment to their gf and also they prefer to have their own free time with their "BUDDIES"

How true is this?

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Met up with Joewyn for dinner at Sakae followed by our chilling out cum problems sharing session....

We then went to ESPLANADE....

I just loved the roof terrace...I remembered the last time I went there when I was sweetly in love...and now....

Anyway There's a Nice view of the whole Marina....





So near yet so far.....



The big blue wheel....




Isn't the lights just so beautiful? Awwww....



Nice big round moon...




How can Laoniang not zilian?



Me and my good listener Ms Joewyn...

We then went below to the place where it faces the sea and sat down to chat....The view was abit spoilt by all the constructions from the Upcoming IR (you can sit down there and count the numerous cranes in the worksite)...However that did not stop us from chatting for a few hours..

Thanks girl for accompanying me..and listening to my rants... I really felt alot better.. You can really be a good analyzer... haha

At least I know wads the next step I should do....

That is to get myself drunk...opps haha no lah.. that is to share my feelings out to that someone.. my truth self...

And I think wad we needed now is TIME.. to prove that our decision made initially was not wrong...

Hope to see ya on FRI.... :)

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Note to myself:

It's either I get real independent...Or I stop faking it...

I'm not as independent as what you thought..

I know all these times you're afraid of hurting me that's why you chose to remain your distance..

From now on I will ....

Quoted from Ms Lin : " Walk one step, Count one step."

Maybe both of us will be happier this way.....

Short Note: A year later....

Confidant


男人总不懂女人眼泪真实的意义

女人猜不透男人忽然沉默的背景

有时候爱情

不如和你喝咖啡有趣

过去的事情想早点忘记却爱回忆

下一段恋曲却又怕再伤心

我们总聊聊互相的安慰

彼此打气

confidant

(kŏn, -dänt')

1. One to whom secrets or private matters are disclosed.
2. A character in a drama or fiction, such as a trusted friend or servant, who serves as a device for revealing the inner thoughts or intentions of a main character.

Thanks to the following:

Ah Jin - Thanks for calling me even though your gf was with u... Your assurance was being appreciated... somehow I always called you when certain big stuffs are happening in my life, you are really my confidant...

Elsie - Thanks for accompanying me tonight. Your presence was being appreciated.. I loved the way you cheered me up...Ms DJ Lin.....

X-tin - Thanks for being the first one for me in the earlier part of the day...Your lousy counseling is being appreciated...thanks for allowing me to join your CLUB, we are always encouraging one another...

Joewyn- Thanks for showing me concern upon reading my blog.. I know you had your own problems too.. you must really study hard and do us WOMEN proud.. Jia you :O

Last but not least...





My baby Charlotte - Mummy knew you will cheer Godma up so she brought you along.. true enough.. Godma felt happy when she saw you...Thanks baby.. at that moment Godma shi happy de...




7 Zai- a new addition to the family this afternoon.. I loved you but you really came at the wrong time.. cause your stupid owner is playing mind games with me now...


Short Note: I hate mind games..and I'm tired of it...

It's been nearly two months...

Since I met up with my poly mates... As this is going to be the last holiday we had before our attachment.. All of us went on to meet our bestie, friends from sec sch, ITE, outside blah blah blah.. Cherish the time we had (machiam like very sad rite haha) Also, our working time clashes most of the time therefore meeting was often canceled.

So today, finally everyone gathered together for a simple outing before our school starts on MONDAY....

Before that checked my timetable online and my timetable this time round was alright.. The best thing is this MON i might not need to go school and also WED toooooooooooo. Most of my classes ends at 1pm wohooooo.

However I knew it, they won't be so good to us... The slack time-table only mean one thing... MORE TIME FOR PROJECTS!!!! arggghhhhh

Well but who cares just enjoyed the first week first then say hahaha.. It's my last year le... I expected stress stress stress lolz..

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Me and Ah Yap met up first and we went to have our lunch at Lucky Plaza

We had Ria Ayam Penyet... I missed Batam so much suddenly...




Yummy Chicken $6, I loved the Chili, it's damn HOTTTTT...



My Soda Gembira in pink - it means Soda Happy drink liao will happy haha.. I wanted to order Avocado Juice (my fave) but it costs $3 here... NO WAY man.. I could get it in Batam for 6000Rupiah Which is around $1 and much bigger cup man...

We then met the rest at Taka and went for our shopping trip...Selyn finally bought her LongChamp BAG le wohooo..



Vivian bought this Ji dan Gao (oops not scolding anyone here) from MUJI.. cute rite the shape.. and yes I ate the Car away lolz..

Head over to Far east's Gelare for some chill out cum tea session...



Jessica, Joyce and Selyn aka Ah Yap...

Everyone supposed to act Emo after this...



Lao niang


Joyce


Jessica


Selyn


Vivian



NO MONKEY IS ALLOWED!!!

We then proceeded to somewhere where u can countdown for Beijing's Olympics!!!!!!



113 Days to go!!!!!!! wohoohooo...

Where can you find a place where all the Branded Shops gathered?



We felt like a tai tai today.. going in different Branded shops...and I saw one Coach wallet that I liked.. $379 and one more PINK GUCCI WALLET wor.. well let me work hard for that ba haha...

Of course we were window shopping the whole day lah.. we are not rich kids ok...





CELINE.. Selyn your shop? haha



Me with Selyn or CELINE??




She is sad cause no one takes pic with her...

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Dinner was at the hawker at the Round Market in Tampines...

U know the one recently featured in 抢摊大行动?



That's my fave variety show currently.. Oh ya we went there cause they were awarded the GOLD MEDAL for their stingray and lala... So how can us who stayed in Tampines not show our support?



Star of the day... Sting ray... We ordered the Ten bucks one.. I tell u this could be one of the nice ones I ate before.. I loved the sambal chili on top.. You can taste that there is 虾米 inside.. and if ever they sell their chili in a bottle.. I would definitely buy it home. It tasted great with white rice.. I could eat the plain rice with that chili only.. no problem.. yum yum...



Then we had the Lala also.. one of the fave dish. It's bean paste lala.. the gravy is nice..however it's a bit salty for us... however.. the lala is not hard and it's fresh.. no fishy smell.. $6 for this.. cheap riteeee..If it's not salty I might have drank all the gravy haha...

Overall it's a nice dinner with hawker prices...Three of us shared this.. and we were so full.. that we decided to walk home from there...haha.. after dinner exercise..

Address: 李记
Tampines Round Market & Food Centre
Blk 137 Tampines St 11 #01-26
Open only in the evening...

And please be prepared to wait for at least 40 minutes.


Short Note: The waiting is over.. Today is a sunny Day :)

X-tin
Shufen
Xiaohan
Vivian
Jessica


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