Sunday, October 16, 2005'♥
The weather depicts my feelings rite now...grey..cold...moody...
Its not a good day... esp a day to go Sentosa for outing...it went on well but the weather is disappointing...our mood was gone...we were stuck in the hut...finally we went off ard evening...
same goes wit mi...im stuck the whole day waiting for just an answer...an answer that solves the mystery of everything... i was distracted the whole day..didnt even enjoyed myself...perturbed by what he said yst nite.. finally i got the answer...disappointing and heartbreaking it might sound..i told myself not to SHED a tear...and i did not..amazed tat im actually so STRONG i went off to bed once i reached home...
A sudden urge of lonliness struck mi.. dad was sleeping..way too early..no ppl chatted wit mi on msn...and i saw his nick which makes it worst...i feel so afraid...afraid of this feeling...which eventually leads mi to tears...i dun like this feeling...in fact i hated it...
i wanted to go out of my hse...run to somewhere and shout...shout out all my unhappiness....shout out all my worries...again the weather disappoint mi..wad i can do now..maybe is to drink a few bottles of beer to get mi to slp... its damn miserable if u cant slp when ur not feeling good...
Dun ask mi wad happen...coz i just wanted to forget all the promises he made for mi...but no matter wad i wanted to thank ah boy...i know u stuck in between...i understand ur difficulties..and we will still be frens de..tks for being my listening ears...tks for consoling mi...
IF ever one day... we'll mit...i'll show u how wrong u made tat decision...
Back to my beer..ITS difficult to find frens who can drink now...all so guai de... I NEED frens who can DRINK CHIVAS wit mi...WHO WHO WHO...pls tell mi...all my frens dun drink de..if not onli a little..i missed BATAM going ktv wit my cousin and his fren..this is wad we call enjoy..
i want to go ktv and DRINK CHIVAS until im drunk..singing tat wu bai and wan fang hokkien song..ai qing jia xi guai.Tat song is oso the first song i sang wit ah boy when im drunk..... i wan to be drunk and merry... i hate the reality....who got this kind of frens to intro?? pls tag mi...